Resolutions and all that

Is it possible to be too lazy during a holiday? I’m starting to think I have been, and am being, too indulgent. Too much lying around in bed until 8am (reading and listening to the radio), too much game playing (WoW and more WoW), too much napping in the afternoon. No plans, no schedules, nothing.

I looked at my diary entry for 1 January 2005. Last year I noted:

Woke late (~10am). Spent most of this day playing EQ2.

My entry for 1 January 2006 reads:

Woke 5am (trying to get back to routine). Spent most of this day playing WoW, and tinkering on LibraryThing.

It amuses me that both days were so similar.

It’s not as if I haven’t been enjoying myself, and yet I’m starting to have this nagging feeling that I could be doing stuff. This feeling that I have been too indulgent, too lazy, is annoying because I can’t get rid of it despite having given myself the permission to do nothing much in particular this holiday. I keep telling myself that it’s okay to lie in bed until 8am reading Harry Potter, or playing my Tauren druid for five hours, or watching four episodes of Smallville in a row, or whatever. Fighting against The Voice that keeps reminding me about those books I meant to read (not just Harry Potter!), the letters I was going to write, the numerous little chores I meant to do.

Which brings me to the topic of New Year’s Resolutions. I’m always in two minds about the value of such resolutions, which always seem to be made just because it’s the done thing. By the end of January they are starting to fade into insignificance and you just get on with things as they have always been. I’m probably just being cynical, but that’s always been my experience. Still, with the benefit of having such a clear record of what I have been noticing and thinking about over the past year (thanks to this blog), for 2006 I resolve to:

• make the most of everything I have (to be grateful for everything I have!)
• do my best with every opportunity I come across

The deaths I’ve been aware of this year really reminded me of the fact that our time on this planet is limited, and well, I want to enjoy it while I can. Life is good and we have much to be thankful for. [Group hug]

So maybe I am just making myself anxious over silly little things. (I can hear M asking me why I am worrying about having a good time!?) Maybe I need to slowly ease myself back into the routine, while still doing all the fun things. Get back into a bit of a balance. Otherwise going back to work next Monday will be an awful shock to the system.

Categories: 2006resolutions, navel-gazing